And one former friend told me that I'm very direct and am not scared to be honest. People, who hurt me that I confronted years later also said they always thought that I'm so strong, that it seems like nothing hurts me and that I don't need anyone which always surprises me as I'm so depressed & insecure inside but no one even notices it. (Which btw I'm really not arrogant, I am extremely insecure at this point) (I'm very tall too, 177cm/5'10) Some even said word for word that they thought I was a "Boss Bitch" or seem arrogant but that I'm surprisingly kind. I do have to admit that the one feedback I have been getting back from a few people is that I'm apparently intimidating and for the ones that have not spoken to me yet, cold. I'm literally an extrovert without friends and it's honestly hell for me. Unfortunately, some of them cannot see me as platonic, so I can't stay friends with them. I feel like they never judge me and never think I'm intimidating or avoid me. I don't want to be a pick me girl, I literally want nothing more than female friendships, but the only people I get along with most often are men, that I for example work with. When I go out, people just stare at me, but never talk to me, which makes me feel even more ugly. But because at this point I always get rejected, I feel like an ugly, smelly sea monster with the worst possible personality that makes people avoid me. I take good care of my hygiene, wear perfume etc. I used to get many compliments, almost daily, in how beautiful I am and it still at times happens, but not as much. When it comes to my outer appereance, I envy my 19 year old self. Everytime after a meeting, the people said it was fun to do something with me. I even make people laugh, so I don't get it. I know how to make sure there is no awkward silence, I always recognize the things people are passionate about and therefore always ask the right questions that make them talk for long and in groups I always am kind of leading the conversation. In fact, people always compliment me on how attentive I am, because at this point I mastered how to have conversations with people. And the few people I did end up meeting, never turned into a friendship, despite getting along well. I really tried everything when it comes to finding friends, I approached people face to face, joined a sports club, I even used an app for it. I have one friend left but she lives 8 hours away and one who still reaches out every few months but lives in sweden (i live in germany). I used to have a few friends but we grew apart since I was always the one who moved away. If it weren't for my boyfriend (who still lives in my hometown, 4 hours away), I would have no one to talk to. I also don't really have a close relationship with my family either because I experienced abuse growing up, which makes the lonliness even worse. I'm an extrovert and am always at home which is making me so depressed. I moved to a new, bigger city about 1 ½ years ago to start studying at a university and I still don't have one single friend. Submitted by Unable-Science3242 to fragranceswap Ģ023.03.27 14:38 germanfragola I (22f) am an extrovert without any friends Submitted by Unable-Science3242 to fragrancedeals Ģ023.03.27 15:06 Unable-Science3242 Yves Saint Laurent La Nuit De L’homme bleu electrique and others (bottle) EX NIHILO FLEUR NARCOTIQUE edp 100ml - 100€.TOM FORD TOBACCO VANILLE 100 ML EDP - 90€.TOM FORD LAVENDER EXTREME 100 ML EDP UNISEX - 95€.Tom Ford Fucking Fabulous edp 100ml - 85€.Tom ford mandarino di amalfi edp 100ml - 90€.Paco Rabanne Invictus Victory edp 100ml - 75€.Paco Rabanne Invictus Intense edt 100ml - 65€.CHANEL ALLURE HOMME SPORT 100 ML EDT - 85€.Armani Stronger With You edp 100ml - 80€.YSL black opium Pure Illusion 90ml edp - 80€.YSL black opium Floral Shock 90ml edp - 80€.Versace Atelier eclat de rose edp 100ml - 80€.Thierry Mugler Alien Oud Majestueux edp 90ml - 65€.TOM FORD Orchid Soleil Eau de Perfume 100ml - 85€.TOM FORD Metallique Eau de Parfum 100ml - 90€.Lalique fleur universale edp 100ml - 60€. Giorgio ARMANI SI PASSIONE 100 ML EDP - 85€.Chanel coco Mademoiselle edp 100ml - 95€. CAROLINA HERRERA GOOD GIRL CLASSIC 80 ML EDP - 85€.Balenciaga 10 avenue george edp 75ml - 60€.I also sell testers of other brands like Chanel, Tom Ford, Armani and more. I have 6 bottles of la nuit de l'homme bleu electrique (Brand new, original).
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